soooo....

well i haven't written in a few days. but i don't know what i am supposed to write. i may get to see my brother and sister,who i have never met, this week!! i am sooo excited. see they both live with there moms and i have a different one then both of them. but yeah. so another cool thing happened this week... i had plans to do some stuff that was definitely against what god has planned for me and god showed me what he really wanted happening. i was soooo relieved. :) i love Jesus!!

uhhhh....

so i have been reflecting lately on life and god and my walk with him. there have been some major points in my life where i have grown incredibly and i believe this past summer was on of those times. i got to spend quality time with God and also spend that quality time with friends. he showed me so much over the summer. taught me patients and the value of friendship. i thank god for all of the people he placed in my life especially through the tough times i experienced at camp. the reunion or memorial of my friends death and the disconnection between me and my former counselor. dealing with a rough home life and yet still makin it through. so thanks to all of you in my life who were there for me. i love you all.

sometimes i think about life and all that it contains it kind of impresses me. we can breath and move around and make friends and love. God has done so much for us and it really amazes me. i think about all of the things to look forward to in life : graduation and marriage and family of my own, making new friends and keeping the old, watching my children grow up and go off to college. travel a bit, start and finish a career, have my own house! all of this stuff just makes me want to thank god for life even more then normal.


so anyways new question...

Why doesn't McDonald's sell hotdogs?

At a movie theater which arm rest is yours?

Why do doctors leave the room when you change? They're going to see you naked anyway

What does PU stand for (as in "PU, that stinks!")?

Do you yawn in your sleep?

Why do dogs like the smell of other dogs butts?

Do you wake up or open your eyes first?

Did Noah have woodpeckers on the ark? If he did, where did he keep them?

Why can't donuts be square?

Why put a towel in the dirty clothes basket if when you get out of the shower you are clean?

Are children who act in rated 'R' movies allowed to see them?

about me!!

Favorites:

food? popcorn and watermelon
color? lime green
sport? basketball
soda? sierra mist
hobby? collecting rubber duckies
place in Maine? Camp Sebago
fast food? Wendy's
other eating out? subway
snack? pickles, eggs, and nutella
animal? dog


things i am scared of:

the dark
spiders
heights
hamsters
crazy drivers
being left alone
loosing friends
loosing someone close to me

have i ever?

driven a car? yes
drugs? nope
drink? nope
jump of a cliff? yes
fallen in love? yes
had my heart broken? yes


places i wanna go:

New Zealand
Ireland
England
Australia
California
South Africa
France
Sudan
Egypt
Italy
Canada


my new years resolutions:
Lose 10 pounds

Try something new

Start saying yes to more stuff

Try to spend time with god every day.

Make more friends

Keep in contact with the old ones

Send in college applications

Find a place to live

Get my license

Get a job

Finish corps cadet class

Witness a miracle

Step up in leadership

Decide my future.
Make it out of the country

well lets see here...

so today has been a good day. really i have had a pretty good week. except i cant go on the college trip but i do get to speak to the middle school students at the youth tubing event this weekend! :) thats exciting. i am hoping to continue to do this but i dont know what i am supposed to write about. i dont even know if people read these things. but anyways... something has been on my mind, i was in bible study yesterday and i came up with this question... (we are studying judas) : if it was in gods plan for judas to betray christ so that he would be killed on the cross then was it in his plan for judas' heart to be hardened to christ for so long? he sat and listened to christ himself speak and was not effected by it in the least. or was he? he did kill himself after he sold christ. so i dont know... hmmm... anyways... another topic...why is it that in drive throughs there is brail on all of the things like at the atm drive through? they cant drive, i dont think... just a question if anyone knows the answer leave one and let me know. :) oh and how come you get a fine for walking through the drive through? $500 at burger king.
so anyways i hope i get some sort of comment so i know someone is reading this...


talk to you tomorrow!!! :)

about me... really deep stuff no one really knows untill now!!!

well i have never done this before so help me out...
i will tell you about me first...

i am a senior who has no idea what is in store for life
i love people but have a hard time with my family
life is tough but i love Jesus
Jesus is the man of my dreams
i think that being yourself is one of the most important qualities in a person
patients is a virtue
i am really bad at school
i don't do drugs or drink
i have friends all over the world
my life is a mess


and now for the serious stuff...
i faced an eating disorder for 3 yrs.
i was sexually abused by someone close who i thought i could trust when i was young
sometimes when i am around people for to long i start to hate them
i get jealous of almost everyone
i don't have a relationship with my mom or dad... well they are both very broken shattered i would say.
i don't really have many ... "friends" in my opinion
i have had a lot of deaths in my life to people who i never really took the time to pray for and tell about Christ
i worry about my self image and weight everyday.

and now the lighter side of things
i have Jesus so i have almost conquered all of these
i love to go to bible studies to learn about god
i love the friends i do have
i love school...well kind of
i cant wait for this coming year.