about me... really deep stuff no one really knows untill now!!!

well i have never done this before so help me out...
i will tell you about me first...

i am a senior who has no idea what is in store for life
i love people but have a hard time with my family
life is tough but i love Jesus
Jesus is the man of my dreams
i think that being yourself is one of the most important qualities in a person
patients is a virtue
i am really bad at school
i don't do drugs or drink
i have friends all over the world
my life is a mess


and now for the serious stuff...
i faced an eating disorder for 3 yrs.
i was sexually abused by someone close who i thought i could trust when i was young
sometimes when i am around people for to long i start to hate them
i get jealous of almost everyone
i don't have a relationship with my mom or dad... well they are both very broken shattered i would say.
i don't really have many ... "friends" in my opinion
i have had a lot of deaths in my life to people who i never really took the time to pray for and tell about Christ
i worry about my self image and weight everyday.

and now the lighter side of things
i have Jesus so i have almost conquered all of these
i love to go to bible studies to learn about god
i love the friends i do have
i love school...well kind of
i cant wait for this coming year.